This Is War.

yes it is indeed.

i consider myself to be one of the biggest 30 seconds to mars fans in the world. ever. so you can imagine my excitement when i realise, rather not-really-a-fan-your-dumb-and-dosily, that it was the 7th of december today.
however, i realised this yesterday.

'so' i hear you say 'what's so special about the 7th of december'?
so i will tell you ...

it is only the day of the long awaited release of the album this is war .. the bands first album in 4 years .. pushed back various times due to disuptes with virgin/emi ..
oh my effink god i was so excited when i realised this.

so in an attempt to regain my biggest fan in the world status i woke up this morning took my charming little brother to stay and play, spent and hour or so chasing snotty-nosed children with low immune systems and permanent colds around a freezing cold sports hall and then sat buzzing excitedly in the passenger seat of my mums car on the way to get my lovely new long awaited album.

i went in whsmith, spent about 15 minutes traipsing round frantically searching for a cd section, nada. i was in a really small rubbish shopping outlet so all i could do is hope and pray for a HMV. I walked out of whsmith disheartened and cd-less. but then, as if god himself had heard my desperate pleas i looked up from the floor (i was staring at it in defeat) and there it was. i had never been happier to see the colour pink in my life. i raced toward that beautiful illuminated sign, almost mowing down about 3 old ladies in the process. my mum chased after me pushing the buggy containing my little brother, he looks horrified and shocked all at the same time. in his entire life i dont think he has ever seen me run so fast. i ran to the new releases, scooped up the first copy of this is war that i saw and i actually hugged it. i paid for it and even the stroppy looking shop assistant couldnt dishearten me. it was actually hard to believe that i was holding it in my hand. i had been waiting so long for it. it was immense. truly magical. awesome day.

My Epiphany.
i know ive only just started my blog so you don't know the events that occured in my life over the past 5/6 weeks, but ive changed. alot. ive become entangled in my own misery and engrossed in the thoughts, theories and actions that torment me. ive fulfilled my own selfish needs at the cost of the people around me. i thought it didnt matter. i realised sat in my PSE lesson, 4th period on friday, that i need to stop because im losing everyone. so im going to apologise. my life will be optimistic and positive. im going to focus on my schoolwork (need 5 grade B GCSEs for my international Baccalaureate course!) and im going to try and move on.

i just hope no more misery disturbs this.

Hey guys, if your unlucky enough i might tell you about the events soon xP